Rush.

There is this force field between us that I don't want to describe. It's this unfamiliar territory that we never ventured until now. A restless and rush relationship has calmed. Probably the opposite of a calm before a storm. Although, it's odd how it took so much of us to be back in first base. I mean, that's how I look at it. We're back to the beginning, right?

Still, I must admit I don't like it that much. I've realized far more than what meets my eyes, which I don't like. Let's just say, I'm more aware of my thoughts and you.

For the better, I don't want to do anything out of impulse. Also, I don't want to be so negligent towards my words only because it's one reason why we're redoing everything. Starting fresh, right? Even though, I'm so resistant to give myself to you. It's like, my right foot is ready to step in front but my left foot doesn't want to budge and stays planted on the ground.

But come on, who are we kidding? I mean, giving both our entire lives just like that then taking it away. I know some of it is my fault. I put us in this questioning realm where we just don't know what we thought we did. Then again, you did say the feeling never left. Sometimes, I doubt it you know. I do. I doubt myself. I feel more resistant now, more than before.