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nobody's really winning.

by Jacy Moore on Wednesday, November 4, 2009 at 5:25pm

Then reality settled in and I had a bottle of whiskey at hand.

I could recall a time, when I said I never would. I could recall a time, I said a bit too much.

I find it difficult to trust anybody. I find it difficult to not do what is not good for me. I find it difficult to tell people what I truly feel for that they might think I'm a hypocrite. Although, I already know I am.

Double jeopardy’s got me on a chokehold.

I begin to wonder why I do the things I do without thinking twice about them. I suppose, I'm one of those people whom live for spontaneity. If I wasn't, I wouldn't be in the position I am now. I dislike the feelings that relate to this matter. I dislike the many feelings that relate to anything that involves this matter. I don't want to get carried away. I dislike the efforts that are set forth to being carried away. I know, I'm human but I'm human enough to know the battlefields that are out there. I've won battles, I've lost some too. This is all a part of everyone’s existence. Winning, losing, learning, and so forth. I also don't want to hold anyone back as much as I don't want them to hold me back. You do the things you do because you like doing them. I'm not one to tell you otherwise. Even if these things disrupt my morals. You are a person too, and I am my person as well. I've conquered and striven for the best. I want to stay in this moment where I can control my feelings with the utmost care. Let’s keep it the way it is.